Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	Superman by Five for Fighting

Musings: Daydreaming
Does anyone else feel, as a writer, you need time to just daydream about stories or possibilities? To just let your mind wander creatively but freely and unrestrained? Lately, with my jobs, hobbies, and novel plans, I haven't had much time. I try to "daydream" while driving to work: not always safe ;-). And "daydream" myself to sleep, but that works too well, and I don't remember any of it, though sometimes it infects my dreams, which may or may not be a good thing depending on whether or not I want, for instance a skin bubbled up with a lot staring eyes chasing me around in a nightmare.

But as much as I enjoy it and need it, I feel guilty, because I'm the only one that does that in my family, so it seems wrong. Plus, you know what I do while I'm "daydreaming"? Generally, nothing: sitting there or laying in bed (if I get to sleep in for once). I could be doing things I promised, that need to be done, that are non-writing related. I could be working on my novels: being the serious, productive writer. But the more out of whack I am--whether depressed, stressed, or uncertain--the more time I need to daydream, because that comes easy; you can't mess up daydreaming, after all. And then that means procrastinating. So my guilt is real justified there.

So I guess there is no getting past it: daydreaming, a guilty pleasure, just like that extra chocolate you're not supposed to eat but you just can't get past.